Just Emptying My Thoughts..

haha dat stands for Lost World of Tambun..

25 april 2009 saturday

the 8 of us went to there after having breakfast in town.

we went in 2 cars. SengHoe, PohAnn, ChooiMee, PooiMun. JunJen, Durian, Christina & I.

practically spent the whole day there. we played Everything. well, except for that carousel which was meant for kiddies and the kiddy pirate ship with slides. haha =P 

going down the slides were so fun. there were few ppl there. not so crowded. i guess it’s not the school holidays yet. the floats there were practically ours. haha we went up so many times to try out each slide.

spent quite alot of time at the wave pool too. haha sunbathing there.. ‘burying’ durian, making a sculpture of out the sand on top of him.. lol..

it ended up with us having a train ride & then watching the tigers being fed. haha. the tiger trainers were so lame. lol.. they blew water with us..

we were there till everything closes. lol.. dats so typical of us. hahahaha…. =P

but AIH i got sunburnt. lol.. but yea it was fun going with frenz la.. =) this time, i put my camera to good use too!! hehe =P

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we went back when it closed. headed for dinner. after a very mafan discussion… we went to TescoExtra for dinner. haha of all places.. there were 8 plates of peking style rice wrapped with egg. lol.. walked around tesco for a little while.

all of us were tired & wanted to go home. on the way home, they suddenly had an idea of visiting SingYee. cause we were using the highway to go home and we were sure to pass TamanJati. it was meant to be a Surprise for him. lol.. but we failed cuz durian recognised his house wrongly.

so the 8 of us visited him and we sat on the hemisphere bar at sandy field opposite his house. we chatted kinda long. catching up i supposed. ns stories & wateva came to mind =) haha.. i enjoyed looking at the stars. the night was so pretty!

went home after that. iz 10 mins to 11pm. haha an early night.. =)

24 april 2009 friday

woke up near noon. i had to rush.

went to tun razak library.. f4 maths chapter 2. at first even i was blur. i didnt know how to teach factorisation. it had totally left my brain at that moment. lol it was my first time going to the library in n-years. i didnt go there even once during my spm year, be it for revision or for borrowing books.

i was out from the hse at about 12.30pm. and got home at about 4.45pm. oh the library can be the best place to sleep man. So Cooling.. even in the hot weather. ah so tempting. it somehow reminds me of the problematic air-cond in my room. haiz..

bm.. after that we went to buntong to eat wantan mee. another “my first time after n-years”.. haha. sifu’s favourite wantan mee. lol =P

senghoe, christina, chan, me. pohann, chooimee, junjen. durian. kan joined us too after so long of being MIA. he drove there.. haha first time seeing him driving..

the main aim of gathering was to discuss about tomorrow’s schedule. we finished discussing. gosh. it was so boring waiting for them to talk next. blow water. aimless. i was tired.. i think many of them were too. dat resulted in a moody atmosphere..

went straight home after dat. it was an Early night. haha… *thumbs up*

thursday 23 april 2009 [continued]..

no swimming. no jessica’s hse. no karaoke. nothing. so yea..

went for bm till bout 10++pm.

went to ipoh garden east “tung gu ting”.. had “siput sedut” kam heong style.. wahliao fun experience eating it. 

lol =)

even the most cheerful & happy-go-lucky person will find himself in the dumps occasionally.

and to those who played any role in helping me out from the dumps, it is only great to let you know that you are appreciated. any little effort counts!!

Thank You!! =) 

i’m really okay. dun worry anymore =)

thank you for being there!!

thursday 23 april 2009

i put YeeSan’s aeroplane Again. aih.. felt so bad. Jamie jie too. sorry for not coming for the swim.

EeXin ar, sorry too. i cannot make it to Jessica’s..

~ i just realised. any outings involving Jamie, i’ll not be there. haiz.. and the only day when i made it (mp ipoh parade).. she had to leave early. how sad is dat??

gosh, i feel so tired today…

yea dats wat i did for the day. lol.. nothing much.

wednesday 15 april 2009

woke up at 8++am. got ready, explained my activities to mum & rushed to the post office. the QUEUE was so Long!! i waited impatiently.

yumcha at guangzhou at 8.30am. i arrived at about 9am. late indeed. 

haha i saw my dad at kee tuck seak. din bother to greet him cuz he din see me.. lol..

reached home at 10am.

durian came. forced him to do questions on standard form and significant figures..

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walked from hill top cafe to ipoh parade again =)

met up with chin, eexin & jiafoong. zhihui & phuiyan arrived later.

had lunch at coral & we had our usual chat. haha not the type of chat i wanted. anyway it was still Great meeting all of them =) especially phuiyan.. though yea we do not share many topics in common, i still treasure you as a friend!! a sweet girl, u are =) inti nilai, N9.. all the best!!

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came back and chatted with siewyoke online. poor her, she was having a hard time deciding.

online till now. tiring. sleepy. not enough sleep. aih.. not in the mood for bm at all. decided not going..

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all the best in your future undertakings!! ALL of You!! God bless all of you! =)

ciao for now!! =)

*yawns*

another week starts..

monday 20 april 2009

woke up near noon.

went to big tree leg for lunch > the store > kfc > home 

aih at kfc, i was found guilty of ordering the wrong food.  

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slept at 8++pm. my earliest in history. haha..

but i woke up at 12++am and couldnt sleep till duno wat time. lol.

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20 more days to matriculation..

tuesday 21 april 2009

woke up at 8.30++am. pooimun fetched me to a girl’s house. we were there to know more about matriculation cuz the girl just finished hers.

i dont know. but hearing about it makes me feel even worse. haiz.

hongkong > the store > home

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silibin corner at night. 9 till 11++pm. din teach anything.. haha. too distracted.

first time driving so late at nite. haha =)

really random. it was just a normal day to start with.. ended up so packed. haha.

sunday 19 april 2009

went to jusco. sultan’s birthday. traffic jam because we took the wrong route.

i had fun playing crazy hoop at the capcom station. hehe =) fun!! our difference was 10 marks. mine was 129.

went to mcD. aih the spicy mcChicken finished Yet Again & if i were to wait for it, it would be 1/2 an hour. i gave up and ordered a strawberry sundae instead.

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went to DR park at 4++pm. was meeting chin, eexin & her church members there.

they came at about 5pm. zhihui, jessica & melissa turned up too!!

had a game of captain ball. food.

basically a session of food & games. it was fun to meet new people.

looking at them, how i wished the previous church i went to would give me a sense of belonging and warmth, so that a sense of commitment is induced in me to continue growing in faith. to regularly attend church so that i would learn More. haiz..

to me, in a church, numbers do not matter much. 

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went for a midnight show at jusco.

11.55pm. we didnt think of watching it so late But… aih..

paul blart : mall cop

a comedy. funny But unrealistic. enjoyed it anyway =)

yup, another late night. even went online after the movie. lol..

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random thoughts…

well when winson dai gor said this : u all are really treating this like Your reunion eh??

i’m not sure whether it was a sarcastic remark or was it even a question. u might say i was thinking too much. cuz his question wasnt directed to me alone.

i thought about it and at that moment, i did not know wat answer should i give. it struck within me a thought that we were having our own fun, neglecting others we did not know. isnt it a day for us to mix around so that we could know others better?

i felt sorry if our presence disrupted the event. i seriously felt it would be a good time for the church members to bond & they would no doubt have much more fun when every church member participates in the event. i hoped our presence did not sideline others.

out of a sudden, i felt so bad. feeling bad for crashing, maybe?? but yea, i did try to make friends. at thw very least, made an effort to. i was chatting with kylie jiejie when suddenly many ppl came & joined in. i was surrounded by ppl. i was in the middle and seeing ppl all around me, i feel suffocated. so yea i left. moved behind.. behind those surrounding me..  

and then the question arose..

looks like stupid days do continue.

saturday 18 april 2009

i woke up at noon and happily went online cuz dad was not online. he was OUT. haha. well, if u know me well enough, u dont really see me online on friday, saturday & sunday. except on late nights i guess..

let’s see, i was happily online till the usual thing happens [if i'm online]. dad comes home. he goes online. he finds his connection not fast enough. he asks me to go offline. But this time, i managed to update blog. hehe..

night comes.

i was also happily online at night. i was looking in on matrix. seeing what awaits me in pahang.

he came back. he was talking about matrix. obviously after looking at what i was looking at online.

then he started his usual questions. usual crap. n my usual answers of Not Knowing who got, who’s going etc. i really duno mah. PLUS how many of you who got it can tell me that you are 100% leaving for matrix on 11 may 2009. NONE RIGHT?? i was answering the Truth. then he started talking AS IF i had already made up my mind to go.

well, he heard my replies, i, obviously being very NOT enthusiastic to answer him. i even showed my disapproval at his questions. stupid questions they were. how many ppl going? i said “duno. many ppl duno yet.”

hello, ppl think no need time isit??? then he started saying “dun go jau stupid” and that really got my temper flaring Again. i really fought back. “dun go jau stupid?” then he gave his answers which i was not interested to listen at all. wat kind of conclusion is dat??? how can he judge my friends like that?? all those not in matrix jau stupid? really stupid of him to think like that. shameful. i was angry but i was not facing him. i was facing the  computer screen.

then he started attacking mum, who was the most innocent. she is NOT to take blame on anything i do. Never. he talked and talked and wouldnt shut up. and i HAD ENOUGH. i had been trying to control my rising temper. he totally spoilt my mood. i had no interest in reading about matrix already. so i shut down the computer and went to the room. mind you, my actions were not gentle. 

and he got angry with me. saying those stupid things he would not do. Fine. cant you realise that i am hoping you would just shut up and stop picking up fights with mum? she was not wat u described. i went to the room because YOU were SO NOISY. i didnt wana listen to u arguing with mum, blaming her & belittling her. she is your wife, for goodness sake.   

before i left for silibin corner, i told him in the face that my mum is not wat he said she was. and i even said mum Did Not discourage me from going pahang. in fact she tried to say that matriculation is good. i just didnt want both of them to fight. i duno whether he accepts my explanation but i’m just telling the truth. he bathed while i left the house.

how good isit to have a wife that would think from Your point of view? trying to advise me.

when i came back, my sis told me that my mum cried. she wasnt sure. but still, it was so heartbreaking to hear that. and to think that I was the root of all problems…

how i wish time would turn back and i would be in my room when he got back.

then Nothing would have happened. None of those.

my heart aches. 

oh in contrast to my previous post, congrats to all those who got their matrix!!

congratz =) if that’s what u wana hear.

oh and all the best too to those who are appealing. hope all of you will be approved!! best of luck!!

i’m so sick of that word.