BEWARE : Long-winded post ahead.. Sorry to bore all of you..
I have not blogged about my life or day here simply because I Dislike it here.
But today I think I would excuse myself.
Friday. 16 October 2009.
It was after the Physics Paper 1. I wasnt feeling in the mood for anything but I still joked around with my roommates. Had lunch.
After a nap, Chan came to find me for the second time of the day, settling some bus ticket business.
It was kind of a relief not seeing her for so many days during the exam period. I dont know why.
We bought ice-creams and walked all the way to that ATM machine with that Merciless Sun shining upon us just to withdraw money. All I had to say is that she really knows how to choose the time to withdraw money. Swt..
I had a filling lunch, two ice-creams and one bottle of green tea but i still got hungry very early that night. Talking about eating to destress.. I just felt the urge to eat and eat and eat..
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I had 4 chatting sessions yesterday. Different groups of people. Different languages.
I almost poured my heart out. Lucky I managed to control my mouth. Those things not meant to be made known. Haih.. I can only say I dont know & dont ask me.. Next, at the cafeteria cuz i forgot to bring my room keys..
Later in Shobana’s room. It was actually refreshing to chat with a bunch of people in English. Thanks to Shobana =) I normally converse in Mandarin with the Chinese girls here, except for those Ipoh-ians. haha.. And oh, she made me gain so much interest in reading magazines. So gonna get my hands on them this Monday Afternoon. LOL.. Not to forget my MUET speaking test on the next day =(
The next group actually cant believe that I actually had fun chatting around in English. Haha, I dont know what’s wrong with them. I believe I can get along with anyone if I am in the mood. It’s up to them to believe or not.
In Ann’s room, we chatted too. Ann, SiewBee, SooYing, Rosalind, Shobana & I. We finished up Ann’s SunMaid Raisins. lol.. That shows how hungry I was. It ended up with supper (which was supposed to be my dinner..) The food was good. Maybe because they weren’t rushing the orders. Ours was most probably the last order of the day. I have to admit that I might be too hungry. Haha.. Ann who Rarely goes down went down with us =)
I was kinda worried about SiewBee cuz she looked kinda tired and stressed..
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It felt kinda sad when we went back to the dormitory. It felt like a last day for me to enjoy like that.
I felt really sad.. They couldnt understand why. How I wish I could pour out my heart to someone.
I know clearly what awaits me the Next Sem. How my time would be spent Again.. I know I’ll not be free Till the End of next sem.. Haih.. I would not be free like this anymore. How I wish the Study Week & Exam days don’t end, when no Unnecessary People would disrupt my peaceful college life.. But the stress and the way i waste time in the Study Week & Exams dont do me any good either.. Aih..
But if I were given a chance to choose, I’ll still opt for Study Week & Exams. This shows How Much I hate those Unnecessary disruptions in my college life. I hate it. I loath it. And i DETEST IT!!!!! It’s the Major factor preventing me from truly enjoying myself here. It’s not the company here. In fact, I am even scared to see so many people being so supportive of me. I’m really scared I would Fail them. But it’s my choice. And Regret could do Nothing.
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I checked out SiewBee who’s gona spend the night at Ann’s room before I went back to my room. Kinda worried about her. Hope she’s okay. She’s one of the person I really care about here. I’m growing fond of her. Haha..
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Then at night, I did not sleep. I waited until it was after 12 to use my Digi Campus to call up people. I had to speak to someone. I tried calling Yip, then Krishan. No answer. Yip only changes to her Digi number on the weekends.. Aih..
Called others instead. But those people I called.. I couldnt bring myself to tell them my problems or even my feelings. It just seemed so hard. I dont want to burden their already saturated minds with my Unnecessary problems too. HAIH..I ended up chatting about every other thing in the world.
How I wish SokWai & JiaFoong or even ZhiHui have Digi numbers. Chatting with them about every other thing in the world would not seem so bad after all..